I never knew that I would lose you
What actually happened to the both of us?
Didn't I love you so much
And so did you
But now,
Everything's different
It seems to be only Me who loves you
What happened to Your love for me?
I never felt this hurt before
I never knew how it felt to be hated
I never knew how it felt to be ignored
But you showed me everything
In just hours
I never meant to hurt you
But I was really not in the right state of mind
I never understood the reason I wrote that
I never knew
You felt hurt
And it made me feel guilty
I cried all day long
And you just went ignoring my messages
Now, you said you forgave me
But do you even mean those words?
You apologized
I said that it was fine
But now, do you still love me?
I want to know that
Just that, only that; nothing else
But you seem to be ignoring every single word I said
Everyone said that we'll be fine together
But everything just don't seem to be fine anymore
I don't know how you feel towards me already
The three beautiful words you repeated every night are gone
They disappeared from your mind
But it's not, from mine
I want to hear you say those words again
That you love me

You told me that you would always be by my side
But now, where are you?
I don't even see you messaging me
You call this a promise?
Dear boy, I take every word you said seriously
And when you say you love me,
I read it as you love me
But what actually happened to all those words?
I can't believe that it actually led me thinking about cutting
I never knew what was right and wrong
I never understood you
You never gave me the chance to understand you better
And now, I don't know how to express my love for you anymore
Is that love door for me closed? Is it?
Spit out the truth, dear boy.
I'm heartbroken
And it heartbreaks me even more to know that you were the cause
Can't we act like we always did?
Show our love and care to one another?
Why must you have the need to change?
I'm the one who is supposed to change
I was the one who did that mistake, not you

I don't know what to do now
Am I supposed to smile, show my love, care and concern to you?
Or just ignore, hate, act as if I don't know you?
I don't know what state I'm in.
Am I at fault or am I innocent?

I want to see your love poured over me again
I want to see you smile at me again
Like the other day you did
I want you to hold my hand
And say the three words you used to
I LOVE YOU